taintedobligation

A new beginning

2011-10-16T17:35:00.002+08:00

Ok, so I haven't been posting for quite some time. That's because I got lazy and decided to just use tumblr instead. But having read my past post and recollecting all the memories, I feel like there is a need to blog again, to pen down my thoughts and experiences.

So what has become of my life? Well, many things have happened since my canoeing days. For one, I ended up in SMU. Met the pinkie pies (sports camp group). And eye opening experiences occurred. Pinkie Pies are no doubt my "homies" in SMU. As the months past and I get to know them better, our individual characteristics start to appear, we start to talk about more serious stuff, we start to share more of our problems and emotions. Somehow, I just feel very comfortable with them, it's like we have been lifetime friends. I feel rather blessed to have very close group of friends in every stage of my life. And each group always help me shed light on different aspects of life. "Friends are the family you choose".

Studies wise, I'm doing mediocre I guess. I feel like with every step forward, my ability to focus on studies and my drive to do well slackens. I don't know, maybe its the increasingly unstructured way of learning. I need structure, I need tangible goals, I need to be in control of what I am doing. But all these are hard to lay out with more independence as you climb up the education ladder. Oh wells.

That's that for now.

2010-04-10T00:03:00.002+08:00

IM BACK! 38 days really flies like a bullet train. Theres so many emotions in me right now, euphoria, sadness, lost, speechless, regret, failure, sucess. I would have never dreamed of being in such a team, I never thought that a CCA could give you such fufillment, such undiscribable feelings. I have never felt such a sense of belonging to a particular group of people, they are really my family. Words cannot describe my feelings towards SA canoeing team, you have to be in it to know it. I can't believe its all over, the tough trainings and banned food. No more gathering at the fitness corner for land/gym trainings. No more shouting like a mad dog during gym/land trainings. No more seeing the sunset at bedok reservoir. No more of jiao lian's long debriefs. I now understand what it means to be fighting together, pushing each other on, breaking your limits. The SA canoeing team sure has been through loads of joy and sorrows, and im proud to be part of this team, this legacy. Stepping down from canoeing is like ripping one part of me apart. No doubt i will feel lost, weird and sad, but i know that we will meet up often.

K4 girls: I just want to say how proud i am of you all. omg, you all have becomed legendary by coming first for the 500m event. You all exceeded expectations. You all are not any lesser than the K2 girls, you all are strong in your own way. You all deserve those medals with all pride and honour.

K2 girls: Oh man have we been through hell together. switching of partners like some merry-go-round game. going to K4 and ripping us apart again. Our imbalances, technique screw ups and so much more. But today, today we gave it our best, our all. And having a medal or not doesnt matter to me, beacuse at the end of the day its the memories of training and all the sharing and bonding time that we have, that will be forever strongly etached to my mind. We have build a strong friendship over these past few months, and i hope it will remain for the rest of our lifetime.

Jen/Sandra: Haha, you two made the most trouble. late coming, or sometimes not even coming for training. But i have seen you all change, grow, matured from day one until now. In the last few days of training, i can see you all really wanted to contribute to team points, you trained hard. Im proud of you girls for giving it your all and doing your best. Thank you for being there as morale support for the team, you both never fail to cheer the team up.

Sharol/Jinyi: You two are the cutest and most hardworking juniors i've met. You both came for every training and fought it out with us. Sharol! proud of you for getting into finals. :) Jingyi, thanks for being our morale support system. You both better jia you for next year, im sure you all can catch up with Xuan Ning if you all continue to have the kind of training attitude you have now.

Jiaru: Through these four days, i got to kow you better. Well, im still amazed at how fast your K1 can go. Good job in your races today, you are already a champion to me no matter the position you came in.

Ain/Amanda: You both really handle admin stuff damn well. All the sai kang also you all do, really loft a lot of burden from the excos shoulders. The team really wouldn't have functioned as well if not for you both. A big Thank You to you both for all the memories that we get to keep in picture. :)

As for the boys, i shall dedicate another post another day, its getting late and my endorphin is slowly draining away from me. DOUBLE SECOND OVERALL! WOOHOO. :D

2010-02-26T21:15:00.002+08:00

38 MORE DAYS TO A DIV/LIFE/FOOD! alright i must admit i havent been dilligently blogging, i have my reasons. and haha dont expect me to be blooging for another 38 more days. so heres my final post before i immerse myself in the world of heart pumping adrenaline rush. life is as usual, nothing much. sorry my life is boring. whatever. haha. so ya thats about it. i will be blogging one damn very long post about life these past few months in 38 days time. BYE WORLD!

2010-02-02T22:15:00.002+08:00

Champions arent made in the gyms. Champions are made from something they have deep inside them --- a disire, a dream, a vision ~ Muhammad Ali
Champions keep playing until they get it right ~ Billie Jean King
Its about 65 more days to A div. WOW. fast much? high hopes and expectations are being placed on our batch. scary much? but what is there to be scared of right. for the past 1+ year we have been slogging through training, cheering each other on, seeing through the team's highs and lows. we have been prepared for that day, that moment, that 2+ mins and it will be all over. im seeing a change of attitude in everyone, we all want to be stronger, faster, better. but its not to say our competitors arent like that too. but who cares about them, haha i think all that matters is that we go down try our best and know that our team mates have also tried their best. I have a strong feeling this is gonna be our year, our time to shine, we will bring home glory.

2010-01-26T12:08:00.002+08:00

E-LEARNING TODAY. argh. got 4/10 for the stupid bio quiz which is supposedly CA2. damnit. shit and they dont have like a review of the questions or something, at least let us know where we went wrong right? ah crap, life sucks. i sound like a depressed kid on the brink of becoming suicidal. ah well, whats done is done right? anyway got back math MSA on fri, whatever, not like i did very well, as in below my expectations. probably i have too high expectations for myself, but its hard for me to lower them either. shit what have i done to my life. i cant wait for april to be over and somehow someway find a new and better direction in life. hope tmr is a better day and be less emo than today. its hard to accept failure, but yet its the stepping stones to success, guess i have to see the bigger picture and accept failures in my stride.

2010-01-21T23:06:00.003+08:00

Had alot of firsts today. First time in my schooling life i slept in front of a teacher for half an hour. According to peiying she tried to wake me but i wouldnt budge. So anyway they decided to paste stickers on my hair. Walked to the toliet with the stickers on, embarrassing much? First time i had such a short canoeing training, it took me like 20 mins to finish the sets. Okay probably thats not alot but at least there are two. I slept during bio because i was too tired i guess, before that i was dozing off already. oh man, hope i didnt miss much. oh ya and opened my email today, omg spamed with 156 facebook notifications.wth! Lols it was all the SCM photos. Going school bag shopping with peiying tmr. :D GEYLANG TAU HUAY here we come!

2010-01-15T22:36:00.002+08:00

The words that come out of my mouth according to peiying are rather crude nowadays, but it really describes what im feeling. FHUNGRY, FTIRED. I really try to study for MSA, but to my utter dissapointment everytime i try i fall asleep on my book, thats how effing tired i am seriously. New girl came to join the class today, never thought that anyone would considering that our combi is quite weird, anyway she was from cresent, same as Anne. Oh man, i miss Anne, its like a part of something is missing. ARGH. SCM this sunday, K2 with Hwe Leng, aiming for top three hoping and praying that this would be our second successful medal. :) I seriously do not know what the hell i am anymore. Am i a athelete or a student? Because seriously i have forgotten how it feels like to be a student, i have forgotten the feeling of the eagerness to learn, i have not felt in a long time a rush to do my assignments. I feel more like a full time athelete, always thinking about canoeing, AGRH i need this to stop. I NEED TO STOP THINKING ABOUT MY CCA! haha cca, its not even a cca, its an after school compulsory activity. I sound like i hate canoeing, but contrary i like it, but i really want to get back the feeling of .... i really dont know how to describe it, but just feel of being a student again. As said im ftired, so gonna sleep soon, goodnight world.

2010-01-04T23:17:00.002+08:00

Haha i know im a bit late for posting the summary of the year, but its better late than never! So here it goes.

Time really flies by very fast ya. It really felt just like yesterday that I entered SA. I can't say much about my OG, we werent close at all, totally different people. But lucky for me i had KCSA. Thats right, my bunch of Full Of Nonsense KC friends. Lols they have been calling me China this past year, forgot how it all started but im used to it. Sherilyn even got her whole class to call me China. Seriously. Thanks you guys for meeting up every morning without fail, at least the KC spirit can still be felt in this jail house. haha, all the morning gossips and just nonsensical stuff are what makes us truly KC. Thanks Sherilyn for listening to my problems so early in the morning. Thanks Chloe for fetching me to school every morning, so i can i that few minutes more of sleep. Thanks Amanda for the laughable and shocking news. Thanks Jacinta for just being so innocently commical.

I think the best decision i made this whole year was to transfer calss. I never regret it one bit. If i havent transfered i think i will be one sad stressed up loner girl. I love my class and would never trade them for anything else. All the lame nonsensical stuff that we do during breaks and just being together never fails to make my day. I especially want to thank Anne and Peiying, man school without you guys would be mundane. Im really still in wonderment of how the three of us got together. Teasing you both really was great fun. But most importantly you both pulled me through the year, kept me going and also made me realise what true friends are.

To my fellow canoeist, man have we been through alot the past year. Drama. Tough trainings. Competitions. Exhaustion. You guys are the reason im still in canoeing and loving it. Altough we didnt started out close, but i really saw us evloving into one, one team, one family. We had our differences, but when we were training differences were set aside and we fought together. We never fail to encourage and spur each other on to greater heights. All the JIA YOU! COME ON! PUSH YOURSELF! DOING GREAT! are all what pulled me through those tough trainings. Besides training hard, we played hard too. Man are you all the horniest bunch of people ive ever seen. But i guess being horny is what lightens the mood. Lols. No doubt that i had intentions of quitting sometimes due to the difficulty in juggling school work and canoeing, but slogging it out together made it seem alright. With you all, canoeing is not just a CCA, its more than that, its undescribable. Season is going to start soon and I really hope, no actually I know we will do well for 'A' divisonals. Together we will soar.

I guess that sums up my life for 2009. FRIENDS. CANOEING. ya i may sound like i have no life, but life isnt about going out or partying all the time. its about being with the people who you can connect with and just spending your days with them, creating memorable stories together. so ya, I want to thank everybody KCSA, 09S28, ANNE, PEIYING, CANOEIST, for letting me spend time with you all creating history. My history. :D

2009-12-29T19:43:00.002+08:00

If it werent for exercise, i would be a fat ass pig right now, i swear. Pigged out with dad today at some muslim stall in Bt Timah. We had naan, tandoori chicken, mutton masala, satay, chappati. haha another pig out tomorrow at hard rock cafe with the class. I shall train harder in the morning to burn off those fats. :) i swear, the holidays just arent meant for studying, no matter how i study, i dont seem to be very productive. ah well. so anyway i realised im a bread lover. actually anything to do with flour, egg and butter i love. like how i loved the naan i ate today and how my favourite resturant is cedele. i can live without rice, but dont take away my bread. okay, shall try my best to pull myself away from the computer screen and drag myself to papers. and im gonna swim later. :)

2009-12-27T13:45:00.002+08:00

Today will be a day of oldies and a house full of noise. My mum family is here, that would only mean one thing chinese oldies and talking loudly at each other. When i say loud, its seriously loud, so loud that i think the 3rd floor neighbour can also hear us. Anyway consolation is that there are loads of good delicious food. :) So anyway waiting for Batman The Dark Knight to finish converting. Oh ya, my mum decided to paint the two strips of blue at my study area one strip of brick red, it looks alright i guess, but the paint smells like shit though. I shall now spend my time looking at youtube videos and waiting for the conversion to finish.

2009-12-25T19:25:00.004+08:00

This year was a totally different xams eve ever. First, i had a buffet dinner with family. Phew luckily Andrew was around that area, so we could meet up and go Kranji together. The countdown was a bit off 12, but who cares. haha. As usual, the boys were either playing PS or computer games and the girls were just pretty much staring. Anyway the exciting part was when we exchanged gifts. haha. wackiest/sickest shit ever. Seriously i think it was rated R21. Im not going to post what we did here because its just embarrasing and as i said its R21. Even a innocent water bottle could be something sick. But loads of videos were recorded though. I amazingly managed to sleep on a chair upright. Stupid Yu Kai had to carry the stupid live chicken around disturbing people, and not surprisingly i was the most scared. Anyway, was damn tired after that, so slept the whole day until now. In conclusion, its one of the most memorable xmas. :) Thanks mummy for letting me go in the end, love you. :D

2009-12-23T22:58:00.004+08:00

10.58 pm. I am bloody tired, my eyelids feel like they weigh a ton. i want to go and sleep, but nooo i have to wait for the dryer to finish drying my clothes.
WOOHOO tmr is Christmas EVE! but sad thing is my chances of going to canoeing christmas party is still on the fence. ARGH. i need to find someone who is taking a cab at 11 plus to go to Kranji with me and that is practically impossible. i am just hoping and praying that somehow someway i will be at that party. cant believe my mum gave me an ultimatum to choose between celebrating christmas with my friends or family. because she doesnt want me staying over at my friends place. SERIOUSLY. hate these kind of ultimatums. which brings us back to why i have to find someone to cab with me. luckily my aunt saved me by persuading my mum that i could take a cab with someone from some meeting point. so ya, i desperately need someone to take a cab with me. so anyway, got an upgrade today, rather happy haha it felt like a mercedes. PLEASE LET TMR BE A GOOD DAY. :)

2009-12-16T21:53:00.004+08:00

One of the happiest days of my life. I havent felt so happy in a long time. I just cant stop smiling.
1) made improvements in synchronization with hwe leng on K2
2) K4
3) C2
4) T1 relay race with yan jin was a blast. :) cant wait for the next showdown
5) was almost on par for time trial
The second part of training today was all fun and play, it was a once in a life time opportunity.
haha 25 cents wonton noodle.
In conclusion, it was just a day of indescribable happiness. :):):)
TOFU TURKEY = TOFURKEY (grey's anatomy). haha.

2009-12-10T19:15:00.002+08:00

Lets kick some flasher balls (literally). We were warned of a flasher at bedok reservoir, but coach said not to worry, haha he asked us to kick his balls and bash him up instead, i think that would be fun. I saw this flavour of bens & jerry's called turtle soup. Turtle soup, seriously? It consisted of vanilla ice cream, caremel cashew and some other caremel stuff. I dont see the link to turtle soup. Im begining to see my dad in a different light, i guess his not as bad as i think. I guess people change after major events. Anyway spent quality time today with dad, its an alright day i guess. I should seriously start studying!

2009-12-08T20:41:00.003+08:00

Somehow my technique doesnt match anyone. Argh. HL I need you to seriously learn faster! I really do not want to do a singles event, but heard from somebody that coach is pushing me to do singles event. ARGH! Anyway, haha 7 of us got treated to two bowls of dessert each by coach, woohoo, the total amount went up to $30. $30 for 14 bowls of dessert. Then ate longtong and drank lime juice, felt damn freaking full. I feel like i ate loads of nonsense today, ah well. I hope to see us all doing well in any events, I hope we will achieve something great as a team. Somehow i feel some animosity between us, dont know when it started but i think we shouldnt split into groups like this, its bad, very bad.

2009-12-06T20:50:00.002+08:00

Went shopping with anne and peiying today. :) laugh loads. walked loads. talked loads. it was a good day overall. haha it was weird seeing anne that tall. and peiying learned new stuff today. will miss times like these where worries and stress are way at the back of your mind and you can just concentrate on being happy. it was amazingly easy to load photos and tag people on facebook. whatever, call me a caveperson, but this is my first time uploading pictures into facebook. oh ya haha those who know anne should try wearing heels when you are with her, its quite a nice view and funny how she must elevate her eyes up to look at you (ok sorry anne, i am just joking).

2009-12-05T22:58:00.003+08:00

Reached my goal today. :) 2.24mins. Never thought that i could reach such a level, never even dreamed of it. I guess this is the kind of break through that everyone keeps talking about. It felt good for a moment, but now the feeling is neutral because i know there is another goal that i need to reach. The adrenaline rush was good though. I also realised how important seeing your goal at the finishing line is, it drives you to forget about the pain, to forget about everything and just reach for it. It felt good. Every week i have to reach a new level, go to greater heights. I wonder where i will peak, where will i just stay stagnant. I hope that day never comes because i want to continue to find higher mountains to climb, i want to climb so high that i can reach the stars. But maybe this is just a dream, because my body might not be able to take it. However, they always say mind over body, maybe just maybe i will be able to reach for the stars if i keep thinking and wanting it that badly.

2009-12-03T21:37:00.002+08:00

OUCH! i feel like a wounded soldier. i swear paintball is a fun but violent game. three guys got hit in the neck, haha it looks like they have love bites. one girl got hit at the side of her stomach. many had hits on the legs and arms. as for me, i got hit in the legs and my head. i wonder how such a tiny ball containing vegetable oil and food colouring can hurt so much, that people actually bleed. anyway, had fun, its a good way to vent your anger too. feel sort of productive today, did math, hoping to recall some bio, but i feel tired. ok shouldnt procrastinate. :)

2009-12-01T22:03:00.002+08:00

LETS GO! HUNGARIAN STYLE. :)
I dont get why people get christmas gifts one month in advance, it ridonculus (i think its cool to prononuce it this way). Seriously people you need to take a chill pill, one week before christmas, the products will still be there, there is such thing as a stock up. Oh ya, went to sitex on sat, had quite a stach. Thanks papa. :) Met heidi today, i hope she liked her dress. :) I should go sleep now.

2009-11-30T22:02:00.003+08:00

YES! WOOHOO! the day we dreamed of is finally here. WEDNESDAY please come now. :) i hope we are able to sustain our dream and become legendary. my elbows are funny, haha have like a bone sticking out. oh well, haha who cares. shall tend to it after 'A' div or something. i feel high on smiling. cant wait. :)

2009-11-27T18:57:00.002+08:00

pierced my second earhole with anne and peiying. now im trying my best to hide it from my mum. :) had a sleepover at peiying's house, baked, epic fail except for the cookies. i realised how scary anne can be when shes annoyed in the wee hours of the morning, seriously i was truly terrified. watching the biggest loser gave me inspiration to cut down on my snacks, i seriously need to loose weight. do not ever watch burn after reading, it sucks big time.

2009-11-25T23:40:00.004+08:00

:) caught up with an old friend today. haha we were the last people to leave swensen's due to training ending late. Today was a good day, a happy one, hope there are more days like this.

2009-11-24T22:11:00.002+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH
PLEASE I BEG OF YOU JUST GIVE ME A BREAK. STOP BEING SO DISSAPOINTED IN ME FOR A MOMENT. PLEASE.

2009-11-24T22:01:00.002+08:00

Today we fought a tough battle against mother nature, casualties aplenty.
Somehow when i see that smile on your face, all my anger just drains out of me. I like making people smile and laugh, it makes me happy too. But still, i need to go somewhere to scream till my lungs burst and my throat goes sore before i reach my breaking point and drive myself into a wall. And i think thats going to happen anytime soon, so ya i need to scream my heart out.

2009-11-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

FINE. GO. GET PISSED OFF WITH ANYONE WHO TRIES TO HELP. everytime you use the computer you curse and swear, saying how the world is such a terrible place. please go get a life, the world does not revovle around you, nobody will stop using the computer just because you find it troublesome. everytime, it ends of with everyone getting pissed, you, me, EVERYONE. seriously try to show some grattitude and not be sitting there tsking your life away. i swear you need to learn some patients.

2009-11-22T22:31:00.004+08:00

CAGED [keyj] verb: to put or confine in or as if in a cage
I just realised that we are caged from the time we were made.
We are caged as a foeteus in the womb
We are caged as a toddler with our inability to make our own decisions
We are caged as youths with the need to have an education
We are caged as adults bound to the need to provide
We are caged as old people due to deteoriating health
But as the saying goes, "When life gives you lemons make lemonade". I guess this is what life is, take what you get, make the best of it and be happy.

2009-11-21T23:37:00.001+08:00

According to Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, when we're dying or have suffered a catastrophic loss, we all move through five distinct stages of grief. We go into denial because the loss is so unthinkable we can't imagine it's true. We become angry with everyone, angry with survivors, angry with ourselves. Then we bargain. We beg. We plead. We offer everything we have, we offer our souls in exchange for just one more day. When the bargaining has failed and the anger is too hard to maintain, we fall into depression, despair, until finally we have to accept that we've done everything we can. We let go. We let go and move into acceptance.
~ Meridith Grey (Grey's Anatomy)

2009-11-21T18:52:00.003+08:00

I need to train myself to overcome the pain, to overcome the tiredness. I need mental strength to overcome the latic acid to overcome the breathlessness. I need the motivation, i think i found it. Now is to overcome and hope for a breakthrough. Its now or never. FOCUS !

2009-11-21T16:08:00.004+08:00

I <3 cedele depot. It has now given me even more reason to go to the frankel branch, because 1. their ice chocolate addiction is damn nice
2. haha the second reason is for me to know and for you to find out :)
With the food i am eating, i think i have to earn loads of moolah to sustain myself. Craving for starbucks quiche for dinner. woohoo. Food + Grey's Anatomy = Happy Terena. :)

2009-11-20T21:17:00.003+08:00

It pains me to see you hurt this way, but im glad i could put a smile to your face in the end. :) Remember im always here for you no matter what, you will always be my partner no matter what happens.

I thought parents are supposed to see your good points and correct your flaws. But i feel you failed to see my good points, instead always criticizing my flaws. I hardly ever get a praise from you, probably thats why im so tired everyday living life hoping to get some recognition. But probably i too only see your flaws thats why im typing this out, im trying my hardest to not get angry at you, probably thats why my feelings are numbing up.

2009-11-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

Change wasnt very good to me today, i still had my doubts and worries. I missed the good ol' days, but i guess life has to move on. But i will try my best to salvage the situation and not let change take place.
Oh ya, neon pink fingernails are DAMN GAY ! I painted it on a dare, haha Kar Chian you owe me a packet of milo ! :)

Im i reading the signals correctly, should i make a move ?

2009-11-17T22:35:00.003+08:00

CHANGE [cheynj] verb: to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone.
I thought we were doing well, we even had our goals set, we always said that we were fated to pair up. Now thats all gonna change. :( I hate change, but i guess i have to learn to accept it if its going to be for the better. So i guess this is goodbye to our high hopes and aspirations.
Tomorrow shall be a new day with new beginings, hopefully its better.

2009-11-16T21:01:00.002+08:00

GYM + SWIMMING = DAMN TENSE MUSCLES + JELLY-LIKE ARMS

Today's training was quite a killer, training tomorrow again. Argh i can do this !
One became two, haha now two cats are eyeing my house, i swear they have a fetish for my house or something, they are here every night at 9 plus. Creepy.

2009-11-15T22:02:00.004+08:00

The Apocalypse. The End Times. The End Of The World. 2012.
Went to watch 2012 today, it got me thinking about the what ifs. I mean would you just stay where you are and wait for the world to come crashing into you or would you keep on running for your life ? I think i would just stay where i am and just keep on praying, i see no point in running seriously. My aunt also came up with the question of would you rather the end times happen during your sleep or when you are awake ? I would rather it end when im sleeping, its scary to see the world crashing right into you. Okay, enough with the morbid topics, shall move on to the happier moments of today. :) Celebrated Sharon's birthday at astons today and did some catching up with my sec school friends, it was nice.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON !
Oh ya and i got a cat stalking me/my house. Seriously its right outside my house sleeping. The weird thing is that it was at the grass patch near my house just sitting there, while i was walking towards my house it followed me. I think this is the same cat who somehow got into my house yesterday and gave me a shock. I hope it would not be there tomorrow morning, otherwise i will just die and would have to call Sherilyn for help. Haha its damn funny looking at my mother mumbling to herself wondering how the cat got in yesterday.

2009-11-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

GAH . SHIT . AWKWARD .

2009-11-14T17:31:00.003+08:00

So here goes the beginigs of the rantings of my life. I guess anne and peiying are right i would mostly blog about how tiring training is, but i shall prove them wrong and restain myself from blogging such a topic. :) Anyway, going to fetch Kerrianne from the airport in half hours time. Im scared, scared that it would be awkward, scared that i wouldn't know what to say. I mean it has been like 4 years since i met her and through these years we only e-mailed occasionally. We ever tried webcaming, haha that was seriously akward. Ahh well, shall have a heck care what the outcome is attitude and go meet my long time childhood friend. :)

At long last

2009-11-13T22:56:00.002+08:00

Helloz, my first post after i decided to create a blog in like 10 million years. Took me 67527643873265 years to search for a blogskin and made sure that it worked. Well shall begin the rantings of my life tomorrow. :)